Pending list getting longer

Aghhhhhhh agh agh aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. agh aghh. Awat lain macam ni bunyi.
Aku banyak kerja la. Tension2. Nak buat benda ni, gi buat benda tu. Pastu aku buat itu, separuh gi sambung yang lain separuh. Last2 semua separuh2. Choih choiiiiii choiiiiii! Aku siapkan website, tetiba dah setel tengok2 link dia muncul tah mane page ntah. Assistant aku lak tegur apsal lain macam website. Wah, ada assistant skarang. Hah berambus ko stress, berambus. Berambussssszzssszzzzz.

Panjang lagi list nak kena setel ni. Boleh pulak blogging. Takpa2 elak stress. Padahal benda aku kena buat ni nampak senang tapi, dia punya cerewet, wahhhhhhhhhhh! Tension.
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bipolar disorder? Lina, ko ade member.

Mencari

Penat lah. Banyak betul kerja. Aku ingat masuk gomen rilek je. Rupa-rupanya lagi busy ada la. Salah persepsi rupanya aku selama ni. Huh. Ikut kementerian/ jabatan kot. Siapa dpt tempat banyak kerja, busy la. Sakit tulang belakang wokey ngadap PC tak berkelip. Bengang betul aku, hari ni nak buat penilaian website, hari ni baru nak bagitau aku, nak suruh aku pergi update, fix bugs segala, sebelum 2.30 pm. Dah la ambik masa nak cari naming convention semua. Hari ni jugaklah sistem problem. Hari ni jugak server nak down saja je bagi aku gundah. Huhu. Nangis di dalam hati.

Korang doakan aku kawen cepat-cepat eh. Eh tiba-tiba kan tukar topik kawin. Hahahaa. Sebenanye kalau boleh kitorang nak kawin bulan 12 tp kena postpone sebab si lelaki busy travel kerja. Aku pun busy jugak. Takkan nak kawin tak prepare apa-apa ye dok. Koboi betul.

Nak minta tolong siapa-siapa tahu kat mana ada rumah untuk dijual price yang reasonable, 22x70 bagitau ye. Kalau boleh area Seri Kembangan dan Kinrara. Tengah cari rumah nak beli. Wah, macam banyak je duit. Tak tak, tengah cari rumah, nak tambah hutang.

Hari tu ada iklan penthouse price RM1xxK, 5room+1(kat atas tu kot), dengan 3 bilik air. Kiranya 6 bilik. Selesa sangat-sangat untuk 2 orang je duduk.  Murah kan 1xxK+? Cuma XX tu la tak tau berapa. Ni blok apartment yang aku duduk sekarang la. Atas sekali ada penthouse. Baru je ingat nak ushar , dah takde dah iklan tu. Dah ada orang beli kot. Rugi terlambat. Senang-senang, berjiran dengan Kak Zue je lah,  nak book Paragon jugak! Cantek ok gambar Paragon tu. Dah ushar dah, Kak Zue. Hehehe.

Aku predict dalam setahun dua ni, area sini price naik sebab dah ada Giant dengan Tesco dekat je dengan rumah, plus dengar-dengar nak bina terminal area sini. Kawasan Puncak Jalil pun dengarnya nak buat LRT station. (Dengar-dengar je). Sebelah apartment ni pun ada sekolah menengah dan rendah dalam pembinaan. Kalau beli rumah sini, macam okey je kan? Tak nak duduk, bagi sewa. Kalau fully furnished boleh up price. Lagipun orang-orang kerja Cyberjaya ramai sewa kat sini.

Eh kenapa aku rasa macam sangat dewasa dah ni sebab dah fikir nak beli rumah la, haiyo. Takpe-takpe, orang kerja gomen memang macam ni. Macam org tua sikit.. Lagipun hari Khamis kena pakai baju batik Malaysia. Apa kaitan? Haha. Gurau je.

OK sekian terima kasih.

Lagi Kekejaman Terhadap Bayi

Aku copy paste je ni. Sedih gila baca news ni, lagi teruk dari kes adik Alya Aiman.

 Kuku kaki dicabut, dibiarkan budak tu sampai lumpuh, dilambung², tidak dicebok najis, biar budak tu mati dalam keadaan penuh najis. Sial punya manusia.

 

THE HIDDEN HORROR BEHIND A STORY THAT SHOCKED THE NATION

SO SWEET: Tragic Baby P at a year old

EVIL: Mum cried crocodile tears

DISTRAUGHT: Witness feared to act

Please note the comment facility on this article closed at 6pm Sunday November 16, 2008

By Daniel Sanderson, 16/11/2008

TODAY the News of the World finally reveals the COMPLETE and UNTOLD horror of what really happened to tragic abuse victim Baby P.

Our chilling dossier, from a 15-year-old girl who WITNESSED the stepdad's sickening torture, damns bungling social workers who failed to step in.
The terrified teenager said: "What went on was sadistic. Social Services have blood on their hands."

Horrors

The full litany of horrors inflicted on tragic Baby P will chill every decent human being to the core.
Sickening new details totally DAMN the little boy's wicked tormentors and expose the staggering extent of FAILURE by bungling social workers and doctors who let him die alone and terrified in his bloodstained cot at 17 months old.
Through the eyes of a key prosecution witness who actually discovered the body we expose the sheer brutality meted out to Baby P by his evil stepdad and covered up by his callous 27-year-old mum.
The 15-year-old source lived at the family's filthy, flea-infested north London council house with human excrement smeared across the walls and a putrid stench of stale urine that choked your throat.
Still racked with guilt that she felt too terrified to act at the time, the teenager told how the stepdad:

• SLICED off the tot's fingertips with a Stanley knife and wrenched off his little nails with pliers.

• SMACKED his private parts with a shoe.

• PRESSED down on his windpipe so hard he turned blue.

• BIT the tot all over to 'train' the family's vicious dogs to attack.

• DROPPED him 6ft onto the floor.

• GRABBED him by the throat and tossed him into his cot,

• RAMMED a bottle into his mouth so hard it cut his lips.

Of all the vile cruelty the girl witnessed, the most horrifying scene was the one that crippled Baby P, leaving him paralysed from the waist down.
His warped step- father, a 32-year-old Satanist-convicted of allowing the child to die along with the mum and a paedophile lodger-was watching the Jeremy Kyle TV show with Baby P stretched across his knees.
The witness said: "He sat smirking on the sofa, smoking cannabis and playing with Baby P like he was a rag doll. Then I suddenly heard a loud crack that echoed through the house as the baby's little backbone snapped in half.

Monster cut off Baby P's finger tips, pulled out nails with pliers, wrapped him in blankets to dehydrate him, smacked him between the legs with a shoe and trained rottweiler to bite his head

"He let out a gut- wrenching scream. It was so loud I got up and went into the garden and put my hands over my ears to block it out."
Incredibly the terrible injury went unnoticed by social workers AND paediatrician Dr Sabah Al Zayyat. The doctor also failed to notice eight fractured ribs and two missing fingernails.
The 15-year-old then revealed what finally sealed Baby P's grim fate in August, 2007-a night of constant crying that disturbed the awful household. She said: "He was wailing and wailing in his cot. He just wouldn't stop. But he'd been lying in his urine and faeces for days.
"Then the stepdad came down and said, 'I'll sort it.' He went into the room, slammed the door shut and suddenly the crying stopped."
The defenceless tot had been punched so hard in the face he swallowed a bottom tooth. It was later found in his stomach. The witness added: "I discovered Baby P dead in the cot at around 9am. He'd gone a funny colour, a pale blue, and was stiff. I told his mum he wasn't breathing but she waited until 11.30am before dialling 999 for an ambulance.
"Meanwhile the stepdad got away, taking off all the stale, blood-spattered smelly bedclothes that hadn't been washed in months and dumping them in a cemetery to try and hide the evidence."
Fearing she would be a target too, it took eight months for the 15-year-old to summon the courage and reveal her shattering story to stunned relatives. She told them: "It was disgusting and perverted what went on in that house. It went way beyond cruel, it was sadistic.
"The stepdad would shake Baby P, punch him, swing him around by his legs and spin him round on the computer chair until he came flying off and hit his head on the floor. Then he'd pick him up and do it again. He put his thumb down over the poor mite's windpipe until he turned blue and stopped breathing.
"Then he just laughed, let go and pushed it in again even harder to see how much he could take.
"He'd pinch the baby's little fingernails and squeeze them until he screamed.
"And he lanced off the tops of the tot's fingers with a Stanley knife like you would a boil. He said it made it easier for him to then use the pliers to grip onto the fingernails and rip them off. It makes me shudder.

Butting

"He made Baby P kneel in front of him, with blood oozing from the ends of his fingers, and hold out his hands for more punishment.
"Not content with that, he'd hold him above his head and then just drop him on the floor."
The boy's head and body was covered in marks and sores from when the stepdad bit him-to train his Staffordshire bull terrier and Rottweiler to do the same.
The teenager said: "The stepdad laid Baby P on his back in the middle of the room and bit at him and growled in front of the dogs. He bit into his head, his arms, his body and his legs. Then he'd get the dogs to copy.
"He also hit the baby on his genitals with a shoe and wrapped him tightly in blankets, leaving him for hours in his cot to dehydrate.
"Every night before bedtime, instead of a story like most children get to help them to sleep, he was picked up off the floor like a rag doll and tossed into his cot.
"At night I'd hear him crying and head butting the wooden bars on his cot. It went on for hours."

SO SICK: Computer images reveal just some of the fifty appalling injuries callously inflicted on defenceless Baby P

Just days before Baby P died-but after his spine was snapped-the girl went for a walk with him and his stepfather in Chingford Woods. The toddler couldn't stand and kept falling down.
She told Baby P's stepdad she thought his back was broken and never saw him walk unaided again. On the last full day of his life, August 2, Baby P was left alone in his room all day.
At 11pm the stepdad told her to watch as he squeezed the boy's fingers really hard. The toddler could not even find the strength to scream, she said.
He had no strength to sit up and kept falling, looking really ill and sweating. The stepdad hit him on the head and it appeared as though Baby P couldn't feel it. The lodger, Jason Owen, said the child looked as if he was dying-but the stepdad replied that he was fine.
The girl said Baby P's stepdad, a 6ft bodybuilder, ran the filthy house with an iron fist. He spent all day smoking dope and watching television surrounded by lager cans and junk food, the source said.

Animals

Neighbours complained the TV blared all day and seven children in the house ran wild like a pack of animals. Baby P's scrounging mum, who cannot be named for legal reasons, claimed thousands in benefits and slept in most mornings.
Instead of looking after her four kids she frittered away her income support playing online poker. She ignored Baby P's constant cries and spent hours in internet chat rooms. With no hint of shame, she even boasted online one of her favourite things was being a mum.
But in reality screaming Baby P, who was found with more than 50 terrible injuries, spent up to 23 hours a day caged in his cot, locked in a small, dark room with curtains shut. Sometimes he wasn't checked at all- left to lie there alone with no toys.
The stepdad, a domineering control-freak, who moved in when Baby P was three months, banned everyone from going into the dingy room or even changing P's dirty nappy.
His mother even had to ask permission to FEED him. But the witness said: "The mum ignored all the kids and let them do what they wanted.
" She was scared of her partner though. We all were. Day after day I heard screaming coming from Baby P's cot. But I didn't dare go in there. His nappy went unchanged for so long his skin just rotted away. His bottom was red raw, blistered and covered in sores."
All this should have been spotted by social workers from Haringey Council -the same authority that failed tragic Victoria Climbie in 2000-who called to see the baby SIXTY times because he was on the "at risk" register.

Infected

The witness said the mum lied and lied to them, and family friends, to cover up for her boyfriend's barbaric abuse. "She explained away pus- filled, infected cuts all over the baby's face with a string of rubbish that was simply accepted by professionals paid to look after Baby P," said the teenager. "She's a despicable mother, total scum. She told them he was clumsy and kept falling over and bumping his head. It was all lies."
Visitor Laura Swaby (who is not and has never been a health visitor) watched on one occasion when Baby P sat in the back garden shovelling fistfuls of dirt into his mouth.
She noted he had a large bruise on his forehead and seemed quiet and withdrawn. But the injury was explained away, like so many others, with a far-fetched yarn about him falling from his toy car.
"I couldn't believe these social workers kept falling for it, said the girl." Four days before he died, and with his face covered in bruises and lesions, Baby P received a final visit from social worker Maria Ward. The teenage witness said: "He was in such a state his mum was worried.
"She actually said the social worker would have to be an idiot not to notice there was something wrong.
"So she melted chocolate in a saucepan and smeared it over his face to cover the injuries.

Bleeding

"Then she laid him in his buggy because he was too limp for the high chair and put a chocolate biscuit in his hand. He had head lice anyway so she put cream on to cover up his bleeding cuts.
"The social worker didn't spot a thing. The mum couldn't believe her luck when she just had a quick look at P in his buggy and said, 'Hello little fella!' That was it. He was pushed into the kitchen. Door slammed shut. That was the last time he was seen alive by anyone outside the house.
"The heartbreaking thing is Baby P smiled at the woman. Sitting in that buggy with his back broken, eight broken ribs, fingernails missing, toenail missing and a nappy full of excrement and he still managed a smile.
"If she had just taken a second to look properly, to pick him up and look at him, she'd have realised there was something gravely wrong.
"All the social worker said before she left the house was, 'If you're taking him out later, make sure you wash his face.' It's a disgrace."

credit: http://www.newsoftheworld.co.uk/news/article73228.ece

Astro bodoh

Walau sejauh mana aku nak mengelak tengok cerita2 negara seberang, i.e; Sekar, tapi kadang-kadang aku tertengok dan terpaksa tengok sebab astro ni asyik duk ulang cerita sama. Bukak je tv, kalau astro ria dgn prima tu, duk ulang sehati berdansa, awan dania, sekar, jangan lupa lirik zaman jahiliah dulu2 punya, lu pikir la sendiri yang langsung tak kelaka sebab lawak si nabil ni aku tak penah rasa macam kelaka pun-baik lagi sabri yunus uols, cerita P ramlee,kau & aku, macam-macam aznil yang season bila tah. Cerita P Ramlee tu kalau dah sehari 3x ulang pun, boleh buat orang bosan, dah takde ape yang special dah nanti movie p ramlee tu. Ni TV2 tayang 3 Abdul, aku check info astro pun 3 Abdul gak ni kul 12 nanti.

Cenel2 omputih pun duk ulang tayang jugak. sudahla aku penat nak senarai semua cerita2 ulangan astro. bodoh piang, caj orang mahal2, sehari duk ulang cerita sama.

Jealousy

Sumpah aku jeles gile ngan building baru korang tu wahai geng2 XXX.
Apsal la aku x sempat merasa, lambat sangat korang pindah.
Patut la makcik aku cakap bangunan tu besar gile and cantik, pasal company diorang yg buat landscape. I tot dia cuma bragging je. Rupanya betul.
Macam tak percaya je cantik macam tu building nya.
Untung la korang.
Hope anda semua dapat project cepat-cepat!!

Mamai.

Malam-malam tak nak tidur awal.
Pagi-pagi, lagi la susah nak bangun awal.

Kunci jam pukul 6 pagi.
Tapi pukul 6.50 baru bangun.
Kalau kunci pukul 5 pun,
bangun pukul 6.50 jugak.
Kalau tak kunci jam, memang langsung tak bangun. Ini lagi haru.

Bangun lambat, membawa kepada mamai yang melampau.
Bila dah mamai tu, sibuk nak salahkan syampu sebab dah puas tenyeh2 atas kepala tak keluar2 buih lagi.
Tak best betul pakai Pantene.
Rupa-rupanya, aku tenyeh pencuci muka kat kepala.
Macam mana nak ada buih?
Salahkan syampu lagi.
Nasib baik tak tuang syampu atas berus gigi.

Moral, tidur awal dan bangun awal, dan mandi setelah yakin tidak mamai.

Bahasa Meloya?

Firstly nak mintak maaf sebab aku memang tulis entry bahasa rojak walaupun entry kali ini nak komplen pasal bahasa.

Aku kan baru-baru lagi dengan kerja baru 'itu'. Aku tak nak la nyatakan kerja apa dan di mana. Biarlah rahsia. Cuma kerja aku ni kadang-kadang banyak yang menyebabkan aku kena attend conference/seminar.

Aku rasa teramat sedih dengan panel-panel yang bentangkan research masing-masing kat seminar. Buat pembentangan macam tak ada persediaan. Ada la dekat-dekat 30 pembentangan semua sekali, dan ramai jugak panel yang bentang ala-ala membaca je kat atas pentas. Setakat nak baca slide, kami yg amatur ni pun boleh.Slide punya la panjang berjela, rupa-rupanya segala apa yang dia nak cakap, dia type je kat slide tu. Kalau macam tu baik bagi kami hardcopy je, balik baca kat rumah. Lain kali kalau nak bentang benda-benda hebat, janganlah setakat nak baca slide je. Malu la kat orang-orang yang baru masuk kerja. Padahal kat persidangan besar tu. Bukan kecil-kecilan.

Lepas tu dari segi penggunaan bahasa, aku tak tahu, mungkin la diwajibkan guna Bahasa Inggeris, walaupun bahasa rasmi negara adalah Bahasa Melayu kan. Nak guna bahasa inggeris, tak pe, tapi tolong lah para Professor, Doktor-doktor, serta pakar-pakar perunding sekalian, jangan la main hentam saja. Bagi la sesuai dengan status anda sebagai Dr falsafah. Anda bukan sekadar ada sijil, diploma, tapi PHD!!

Antara yang aku ingat:

1. Behavioral disebut sebagai , BEHAVORIAL.
2. Ada sorang panel tu, sikit-sikit sebut, THAT MEAN, THAT MEAN, THAT MEAN. Ape yang mean? Apa mean sangat, tuan? Malu ok, kat jemputan from Singapore.
3. Ada yang tidak tahu tugas dia sebenarnye kena bentang bagi orang faham. Tapi dia duduk atas tu mumbling. Cakap macam tengah berbisik-bisik.
4. Seorang professor yang teramat-amat-amat broken memang tahap pecah kaca pecah gelas, sudah baca harap balas..'I not say that. I not say this, but I say this. For example when I not say that, blablabla.' Sambil berhujah.
5. Capabilities disebut sebagai CABILITIES.
6. Pengunaan, 'Actually sebenarnya...'. Ya ampun..Actually tu maksud dia sebenarnya la makcik..Lepas tu dalam 1 ayat tu, ade 2,3x 'actually.' Lepas tu dalam ayat seterusnya, ada lagi actually. Almost semua ayat ada redundant 'actually.' Wah, betapa benar sebenar-benarnya kot statement dia.. Dah la sebut 'ekceli'.

Sebenarnya aku bukan pandai sangat pun nak cakap properly, tapi bagi aku, kalau dia rasa dia tak selesa nak berbahasa inggeris dengan bagus, apa salahnya cakap melayu je supaya orang tak gelakkan dia, especially jemputan-jemputan dari singapore. Malu ok, kata nak memartabatkan bahasa sendiri. Tapi sendiri yang malu nak guna bahasa sendiri. Lepas tu dah la nak guna bahasa asing, banyak gila kesalahan pulak tu.

Atau, maybe mereka diwajibkan cakap orang putih sebab ada seorang dua mat salleh kat situ. Tapi, kalau aku, persetankanlah yang 2 orang tu, tolong pertimbangkan yang beratus-ratus lagi tu, boleh tak? Dan pertimbangkan kemampuan diri sendiri.

Sorry la kalau aku tersalah komen.

Saadom, Mia dan Mun

Orang Penang yang tak cakap Penang tapi itu bukan issue bagi aku. Aku cuma ada issue dengan si Mun yang tidur pakai eye-shadow. Please be realistic next time.

Sebenarnya Papadom ni aku dah tengok review dia beberapa bulan lepas lagi. Tapi saja jela aku nak jadi ignorance dan typical malay yang cas macam bagus sebab berlagak tak nak tengok malay movie. Jarang sangat la aku tengok malay movie kat panggung, esp movie dari so-called Prof tu kan. Tapi sebenarnya aku tengok je jugak, cuma bukan kat panggung sebab sayang duit dan takut tak berbaloi-baloi. Tunggu raya jela kan. Ahahha.

Tapi since Papadom menang FFM hari tu aku dah terbukak hati nak tengok kat cinema cuma nak-tak-nak, 50-50 lagi. Bila tengok review kawan-kawan, terus je la aku pergi beli tiket online, pasal kalau nak tunggu beli kat panggung, nak beratur panjang lagi, pastu dengar-dengar, penuh panggung kan. Kalau dah namanya penuh panggung, kira meletup la tu.

Apa-apa hal, terima kasih banyak-banyak kepada Chief Kodok, Mr Afdlin Shauki sebab buat movie yang banyak pengajaran, lucu, sedih, menggeletek hati, pangkreas, jantung segala. Memang best ok. Sapa tak tengok lagi, pergi la tengok. Movie ini bukan typical movie melayu.

Aku memang paling suka scene Afdlin dengan Harun Salim Bachik. Kelaka tak ingat. Tolongla, dua orang ni buat aku tak behave ok, sebab asyik tergelak-gelak.

Aku masih kempunan untuk menonton Talentime. Tuan pengarah dah meninggal dah pun, aku tak tengok-tengok lagi. Belum ada kat astro kan?

Aku yakin cerita ni jauh lebih best dari Momok The Movie walaupun dalam tu ada special appearance blogger muda yg cantik dan jugak filem Jin Notti yang ada laki si Ekin itu. Padahal aku tak tengok pun dua-dua movie tu. Sorry2.

Nah, official Papadom trailer.



Kalau tak cukup, nah review dari Facebook Afdlin:
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=9264291&id=19005495526


Dan jugak review kelaka ini. Hahaha:

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